Faithchild

Dear Mr R,

I can remember clearly when u left last year, I was so disappointed. Kept crying and kept wishing I would do more when you were here.

I am not sure why I took you for granted initially. Nothing I did was with my heart… it was just done because it was a ‘duty’. I thought what I did in your presence will benefit me much more than if i do it without you. Well, that’s what people say at least… I do wonder how that can be possible when my heart is not with you.

But i persevered, even when I do not love what i was doing (I am very ashamed to admit that now). And slowly i realised that feelings have been developed.

Verses of Allah reminds me beautifully how life is transient and that there is a Hereafter that I should be looking forward to. The standing up for prayers in the night seems to brings me in close communication with my Creator… bringing  a sense of repentance and humility that always seems to float by me at other times. You, have brought me down to earth… brought me down to the reality of this life and reassess my life, my priorities and my directions.

Now, the same thing is happening… I never seem to learn my mistake aren’t I? I don’t want you to go so soon, but I am not yet in the full mode of things.

To you who is reading this letter, please pray for me and my family that we find another fulfillment in this Ramadhan. May Allah accept your deeds and my deeds.

Umm Wafaa Ul-Imaniyyah.